Joshua 0028

 

 Work around Your Abyss

There is a deep hole in your being, like an abyss.  You will never succeed in filling that hole, because your needs are inexhaustible.  You have to work around it so that gradually the abyss closes.

Since the hole is so enormous and your anguish so deep, you will always be tempted to flee from it.  There are two extremes to avoid:  being completely absorbed in your pain and being distracted by so many things that you stay far away from the wound you want to heal.

(From The Inner Voice of Love, page 3)

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I pray for help in finally sealing the power of this abyss in my life. Paralyzed by the dark tendrils that reach out and suffocate me in my bed, I am unable to solve the exact value of Pi required to leave my room.  I search for the most fulfilling conclusion and discover the multiverse of possibilities. If I chose one, I abort millions.  Yet if I chose none, I abort them all.

In the end, is it just one gaping wound that needs to be addressed incrementally?

I pray to my Lord (meaning, the Master of my Covenanted Life), and ask you Joshua, to help me learn to work around my abyss.

Thank-You.